babe, if you're ever gonna read this, i know i should put this on your blog but just testing to see if you actually come to my almost de-func blog... haha!!!
i'm really happy for you!!! now the tables have turned though, you're attached, and i'm single, so as your best bud, and the babe who's always gonna be there for you, all i want to say to you is, 'enjoy yourself and most importantly, don't make yourself unhappy, ever!' In any case, i'm an email away and put away your lovey-doveyness when talking to me, i'm still in recovery mode man... haha!
i'm going to make a sweeping statement here, but boy do i agree with it - guys are really heartless when they want to be, no matter what shit load of lame excuses or explanations they try to give. So babes, at the end of they day, prioritise your own welfare over guys! give them no chance at all to hurt you cos girls usually get the brunt of it all...
incoherence! and angsty! and grammatically confunded... but ya... whatever...
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
HEY HONGYE!!!
OHMYGOSH!!! HONGYE!!!
yes, sorry for my over-enthusiastic exclaimation! i believe that yes, we were once theory mates with teacher james... if i'm not wrong! can't believe you found me!!! haha! dunno if you'd come to this blog again but yes, if you ever do, thanks for leaving a msg! would wanna find out how you're doing! so yup, if you have facebook, you can add me! it's shimmie sim! though the teachers called me by my chinese name xinyu...
ah, my blog's falling to disrepair and i'm now abusing it by treating it like facebook!
anyway, i'm back in good old london, cant believe it, but i actually quite like being in london!!! i like my room!!! if i get the chance i'll post a picture of my room! and my house with the housemates! i love being in london actually!!! haha! but i suck at time management and i'm falling all over the place doing everything all at once! argh! i have to stop being disorganised and actually get down to doing sth constructive!!! :) but yes, dear friends, if you still chance upon my blog, msg me!!! until i've found a way to put up a darn tagboard, keep msging me!!! :)
yes, sorry for my over-enthusiastic exclaimation! i believe that yes, we were once theory mates with teacher james... if i'm not wrong! can't believe you found me!!! haha! dunno if you'd come to this blog again but yes, if you ever do, thanks for leaving a msg! would wanna find out how you're doing! so yup, if you have facebook, you can add me! it's shimmie sim! though the teachers called me by my chinese name xinyu...
ah, my blog's falling to disrepair and i'm now abusing it by treating it like facebook!
anyway, i'm back in good old london, cant believe it, but i actually quite like being in london!!! i like my room!!! if i get the chance i'll post a picture of my room! and my house with the housemates! i love being in london actually!!! haha! but i suck at time management and i'm falling all over the place doing everything all at once! argh! i have to stop being disorganised and actually get down to doing sth constructive!!! :) but yes, dear friends, if you still chance upon my blog, msg me!!! until i've found a way to put up a darn tagboard, keep msging me!!! :)
Monday, August 06, 2007
Sunday, July 01, 2007
back home!
yes! i'm home! and loads happened when i came back... saw the new car! pretty! haha! dad picked me up at the airport in the new car... stupid me started crying once i touched down in singapore, god, to be home... the feeling is overwhelming! mom, dad and aunt were at the airport waving in a frenzy when they saw me! haha! and dear meishi and huijie came too! those stupid dears! and i kept telling them not to come! haha! then i went straight to the hairdresser's and cut my hair! i tell you! it's amazing the amount of hair i got rid of! it was enough to make the stuffing of a pillow! haha! all those hair i've been living with all these months in london! after dinner, we went to orchard cos mom picked up some items for me and wanted me to try on before she bought it, just before the gst hike! haha!
this morning, dad gave me a warm up course on the car and i drove! for the first time after 9 months! and it was a thrill! haha! auto cars are rather manageable! and then we went to malaysia for a durians at my aunt's! glad to see everyone again though somehow i feel like nothing much has changed during the time i was away... everyone seemed the same, everyone still worried about the same stuff, laughed at the same jokes... it's comforting to know not much has changed but i was just expecting more of a difference...
the weather's to be expected, humid and warm, but i was mentally prepared for it so it didn't create too much of a problem...
in any case, my line's supposed to be reactivated but there's something wrong with my SIM card and i'll have to get it fixed tomorrow... if you want to get me, it's 97875420, but it will only be functioning after tomorrow, i hope.
home sweet home.
this morning, dad gave me a warm up course on the car and i drove! for the first time after 9 months! and it was a thrill! haha! auto cars are rather manageable! and then we went to malaysia for a durians at my aunt's! glad to see everyone again though somehow i feel like nothing much has changed during the time i was away... everyone seemed the same, everyone still worried about the same stuff, laughed at the same jokes... it's comforting to know not much has changed but i was just expecting more of a difference...
the weather's to be expected, humid and warm, but i was mentally prepared for it so it didn't create too much of a problem...
in any case, my line's supposed to be reactivated but there's something wrong with my SIM card and i'll have to get it fixed tomorrow... if you want to get me, it's 97875420, but it will only be functioning after tomorrow, i hope.
home sweet home.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
1 more day!
things to do:
pack my duvet, pillow, pillowcase, softtoys, bedsheets
go gym
go to brunswick to buy stuff home
meet yangwen for tea
have dinner with phyllis and winston
bring the stuff above to joanne's place for storage
pack everything and tie up loose ends
try to sleep
growls
pack my duvet, pillow, pillowcase, softtoys, bedsheets
go gym
go to brunswick to buy stuff home
meet yangwen for tea
have dinner with phyllis and winston
bring the stuff above to joanne's place for storage
pack everything and tie up loose ends
try to sleep
growls
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
trails in Epping Forest!
i went to Epping Forest in zone 6 today! ooh! zone 6 is really nice! haha! the food's cheap too! had a full English breakfast and toffee apple crumble with hot custard on top of it for like about 5 pounds! then went on to walk the trails in Epping Forest! it's exactly what i think an English forest would look like! like the way the trees stand around in a ring around a clearing of copper brown leaves, the rabbits with the whites in their tails bobbing up and down as they scramble into hiding at any approaching sound, the squirrels bounding around the forest, stopping here and there with their ears perked up for any passerby.. there were houses lining the fringe of the forest and i must say these are exactly the houses i expected English houses to be like before I came to london, but was disappointed time and time again to see the drab and dreary buildings in central london. these houses in zone 6 had the cute little porches with the cute little porch lights, beautiful windows with glazed windows, slated roofs and everything you'd look for in an English house! and just a few steps away, you can take in the entire breathtaking view of Epping Forest where flowers dot the lush green landscape! i should work towards owning a house like that! and get mom and dad over for their retirement! i'm sure they'll love the place! zone 6 sounds scary and completely out of the way once you're so used to walking from point A to point B in Central London and can't think of living anywhere except in central london, but once you actually try travelling from zone 6 to central london, it feels just like travelling from Sembawang to City Hall! that's how close it is! 25 mins tube ride away! for a better quality of life! at least i know it will be for me! :) ahh...
Monday, June 25, 2007
freak! 4 more days!
yes, 4 more days and i'll be on the plane back home!!!
i've been packing up and buying loads of junk food back home.. haha! mom's gonna kill me... but you can't mom, cos most of the stuff i bought are chocolates and i know you have a soft spot for chocolates, and on top of that, most of them are for the kids back at home.. so mom, don't complain.. think about it this way, this is probably my last time coming home, so take it that i'm buying for the last time, and it'll be fine! so long as everyone's happy!!! haha!
so, peeps, 4 more days... till then!
i've been packing up and buying loads of junk food back home.. haha! mom's gonna kill me... but you can't mom, cos most of the stuff i bought are chocolates and i know you have a soft spot for chocolates, and on top of that, most of them are for the kids back at home.. so mom, don't complain.. think about it this way, this is probably my last time coming home, so take it that i'm buying for the last time, and it'll be fine! so long as everyone's happy!!! haha!
so, peeps, 4 more days... till then!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
what do you do with a batch of over-achieving school-leavers who get 1st class with honours, are title-holders of several clubs and societies, are able in sports or whatnot and are unbelievably popular when all they do, is to be obsessed with being over-achieving, wrapped up in their own over-achieving realm, where the subtleties of life means nothing, when being self-centred is the way of life? how much can you give despite the volumes you get, when you become over-achieving, when you put all your heart and soul in being over-achieving and forget the world around.
i probably sound anal digging at over-achievers, probably sound bitter even, cos i'm not really an over-achiever but maybe i don't really want to be an over-achiever, not because it's unattainable (i still believe that if there's something i really want, i can get it), but because i really wonder, what can we do with a batch of over-achieving school leavers when they are only concerned with themselves and their standing in society. there is nothing wrong with being slightly self-centred, who isn't, but being self-centred to the extent that you neglect promoting the growth of others and society as a whole creates a regressing effect. you can expect the society to peak with the activities of these over-achievers, but i believe it will reach a plateau because there is no longer anymore synergy when everyone has expanded their own efforts for themselves, which incidentally achieves progress for the society as a whole, but when this individualistic effort is exhausted, there is nothing left for regeneration and creation.
but as usual, this is being too idealistic on my part.
i probably sound anal digging at over-achievers, probably sound bitter even, cos i'm not really an over-achiever but maybe i don't really want to be an over-achiever, not because it's unattainable (i still believe that if there's something i really want, i can get it), but because i really wonder, what can we do with a batch of over-achieving school leavers when they are only concerned with themselves and their standing in society. there is nothing wrong with being slightly self-centred, who isn't, but being self-centred to the extent that you neglect promoting the growth of others and society as a whole creates a regressing effect. you can expect the society to peak with the activities of these over-achievers, but i believe it will reach a plateau because there is no longer anymore synergy when everyone has expanded their own efforts for themselves, which incidentally achieves progress for the society as a whole, but when this individualistic effort is exhausted, there is nothing left for regeneration and creation.
but as usual, this is being too idealistic on my part.
on london weather
i dont get it!! why is it still cold and dreary, grey and rainy at this time of the year?? is it going to be like a perpetual reflection of doom and gloom here all year round? and it's what, nearing jul!? and it's not even summery at all? growls.. the weather here really has a dampening effect!!! i need the sun in singapore!! i mean, of course i would complain a little when i get back cos of the heat and humidity but i am sure the sunny days and blue skies back at home would beat the crap out of the weather here! i remember looking out of my living room window back at home (i don't have a living room here!) marvelling at the beautiful sky and enjoying the warmth the sun brings. so, i would definitely embrace the weather back home, regardless of how sweaty, sticky and stinky i get! :)
it's ooh!, 6 more days to going home... i can live with it... persevere babe!
it's ooh!, 6 more days to going home... i can live with it... persevere babe!
Friday, June 22, 2007
mash up music @ dana centre
it's funny how time trickles when you look forward to something, like in my case, going home a week later. it's irritating. i mean i do have things to do here but i just want to get home. growls...
oh, yesterday was cool. after mucking around in the gym for a while, i went to dana centre @ south kensington for a talk on mash up music. i can so tell you that i suck at navigation cos i had such a terrible time searching for the place when it was just right next to the freaking natural history museum!!! i dropped off at gloucester road and then consulted the map at the bus station like twice but still ended up taking the wrong end of the street, which resulted in me walking all the way to earl's court, only to turn back after i asked a lady out of desperation, and i ran all the way back to square one and walked up the other end of the street, not without getting confused by the order the buildings along the street was numbered. so, an originally supposed 5 minute walk turned into a half hour nightmarish marathon. but yes, i finally got there, with much panting and sweating.
so, back to the talk, i decided to be arty and attend a talk on the genre of music that is completely foreign to me - mash up music, which is basically mashing up old/new tracks of music, videos, media and matching their beats such that it became a new funky form of music! wow! we had 3 speakers who talked about their jobs as mash up artists and the coolest part was when they split us up into three groups and we had to discuss in our groups about money making methods from this new 'industry'. I was on the verge of bailing out when we had to separate into groups to discuss but thought since i was here, i might as well go through the entire event and it was a good experience seeing people present and speak. obviously i couldn't contribute much cos i knew little of the subject. they don't judge you if you don't speak, they don't make you feel small if you just sat there and listened; it was all very spontaneous and comfortable. it was the first time in a group i didn't feel like i had to make a noise to be heard. at the end of the event, the 3 speakers did a short gig and that, was my virginal experience of listening to mash up.
oh, yesterday was cool. after mucking around in the gym for a while, i went to dana centre @ south kensington for a talk on mash up music. i can so tell you that i suck at navigation cos i had such a terrible time searching for the place when it was just right next to the freaking natural history museum!!! i dropped off at gloucester road and then consulted the map at the bus station like twice but still ended up taking the wrong end of the street, which resulted in me walking all the way to earl's court, only to turn back after i asked a lady out of desperation, and i ran all the way back to square one and walked up the other end of the street, not without getting confused by the order the buildings along the street was numbered. so, an originally supposed 5 minute walk turned into a half hour nightmarish marathon. but yes, i finally got there, with much panting and sweating.
so, back to the talk, i decided to be arty and attend a talk on the genre of music that is completely foreign to me - mash up music, which is basically mashing up old/new tracks of music, videos, media and matching their beats such that it became a new funky form of music! wow! we had 3 speakers who talked about their jobs as mash up artists and the coolest part was when they split us up into three groups and we had to discuss in our groups about money making methods from this new 'industry'. I was on the verge of bailing out when we had to separate into groups to discuss but thought since i was here, i might as well go through the entire event and it was a good experience seeing people present and speak. obviously i couldn't contribute much cos i knew little of the subject. they don't judge you if you don't speak, they don't make you feel small if you just sat there and listened; it was all very spontaneous and comfortable. it was the first time in a group i didn't feel like i had to make a noise to be heard. at the end of the event, the 3 speakers did a short gig and that, was my virginal experience of listening to mash up.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
things on my list
settle accomodations for next academic year: check
read: ... still trying to get it started
stop having mean thoughts about people: ... it's hard especially when they just keep getting on your nerves.
pack my clutter for storage: about 50% done and will be moving next week
have tea with tutor: check, did that today and i enjoyed it
buy stuff for people back home: maybe next week once i've decided what to get
go to a gay bar: man, i only just found out that Paul went back already so there's no guide! growls...
laundry: still a bit more dirty laundry to be accumulated before i dump them into the machine
visit free museums: somehow i've yet to get over the inertia
i'm proud of myself though cos i've been keeping to a promise i made to myself but i can't say it aloud here cos i dont want to jinx myself! haha! i will persist! :)
i can't believe it! 1 week and 3 more days to home!
read: ... still trying to get it started
stop having mean thoughts about people: ... it's hard especially when they just keep getting on your nerves.
pack my clutter for storage: about 50% done and will be moving next week
have tea with tutor: check, did that today and i enjoyed it
buy stuff for people back home: maybe next week once i've decided what to get
go to a gay bar: man, i only just found out that Paul went back already so there's no guide! growls...
laundry: still a bit more dirty laundry to be accumulated before i dump them into the machine
visit free museums: somehow i've yet to get over the inertia
i'm proud of myself though cos i've been keeping to a promise i made to myself but i can't say it aloud here cos i dont want to jinx myself! haha! i will persist! :)
i can't believe it! 1 week and 3 more days to home!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Avenue Q - It Sucks To Be Me
Last night, i caught Avenue O at the neil coward theatre with winston! it completely blew me away! the jokes, the satire on taboo issues like homosexuality, unemployment, sex and internet porn sent everyone in the audience laughing through the show! it was amazing the way the puppeteers brought the muppets to life! the muppets were so much a part of them i almost felt like the puppeteers didn't exist and the muppets were the ones doing the singing and acting! found some clips on youtube!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
moving on...
I haven't gotten used to the time that i have now on my hands! haha! well, actually i haven't been that free.. i've been searching and viewing houses in a frenzy for next year! but i've been rewarded, together with the help of phyllis and huijie, i finally found a house where we'd all like! tomorrow we'll be signing the agreement and putting down the deposit! shall try to polish my cantonese and to ask for more perks! haha! i tried talking to the landlady in cantonese yesterday and i must say, i'm slightly surprised that i managed it pretty well for an amateur like myself! must be the hk drama i've been watching recently! been trying to read as well but i feel so tired everytime i try... hmm.. that's a lousy excuse! i'll have to force myself! been trying to get into an exercise regime but it's always 'oh i'll do it tomorrow' and that tomorrow just leads on to the next and the next and never materialises! haha! lazy me! at least i played squash with xiufang yesterday! and guess what, we didn't even run that much and our muscles were already complaining. yes, that's how unfit we are! haha! i packed some of my stuff today and i was quite happy to see almost all my clothes fitting into my humongous luggage! haha! makes packing a lot easier! so i'm not left with much to pack! the only thing is transferring my stuff to my storage place.. will enlist the help of winston or something! excited to move!!! excited to get home!!! and i'm so near to going home!!! finally!! haha!
Friday, June 08, 2007
I'm Done!!! Hello Home!!!
weehee!!! the wild taste of freedom! seriously for the last 2 months, i must say, i have been languishing in pain, studying everyday and feeling like it will never end. there were times where i just wanted a break and do stuff without exams nagging at the back of my mind and finally, yesterday, at 1730, i was free.
this feeling of being liberated to do anything i want is mind blowing, though i haven't had the chance to fully have a taste of it. mind blowing because you've been trapped in this cycle for so long, caught up in a system of studying, forcing yourself to study because you didn't want to do too badly, telling yourself it's good to study, giving yourself momentary breaks which were mostly a way to distract yourself for a while so that you can come back and study even more, and finally, on the last day, at the last second, you are free, free to do anything you want, free to have fun with no commitments and obligations. wow. but i did enjoy the process of lamenting the fact that everyone else was done and i still had 2 freaking papers and then studying... it was a feat!!! i think the entire process was a feat! that i hung in there till this point and did what i could to not let myself down! and to have such self control over myself despite the many distractions i faced! and i can boast that i did two 3-hr essay papers on my last day. Let me tell you how bad it was, by the end of the papers, i had two blisters on my fingers and my hand felt sore, almost as if it was about to fall off. but. but. but! i'm done! the final point of this year.
i'll have to do some reflecting on this year since yesterday marked the end of the academic year for me. i must say i really did do some work here! it was not all rosy here all the time, but i survived and really learnt a lot! and now it's time to look forward to going home! on the 29th! 21 more days and hEllo HOME!!! all this time... and now i'm finally able to count down the days to home with all my heart!
and now, the greater realities of life - laundry, yes, i have a mountain of laundry to settle cos i haven't been maintaining the upkeep of my personal hygiene since the start of exams, or was it the start of easter hols? haha!
this feeling of being liberated to do anything i want is mind blowing, though i haven't had the chance to fully have a taste of it. mind blowing because you've been trapped in this cycle for so long, caught up in a system of studying, forcing yourself to study because you didn't want to do too badly, telling yourself it's good to study, giving yourself momentary breaks which were mostly a way to distract yourself for a while so that you can come back and study even more, and finally, on the last day, at the last second, you are free, free to do anything you want, free to have fun with no commitments and obligations. wow. but i did enjoy the process of lamenting the fact that everyone else was done and i still had 2 freaking papers and then studying... it was a feat!!! i think the entire process was a feat! that i hung in there till this point and did what i could to not let myself down! and to have such self control over myself despite the many distractions i faced! and i can boast that i did two 3-hr essay papers on my last day. Let me tell you how bad it was, by the end of the papers, i had two blisters on my fingers and my hand felt sore, almost as if it was about to fall off. but. but. but! i'm done! the final point of this year.
i'll have to do some reflecting on this year since yesterday marked the end of the academic year for me. i must say i really did do some work here! it was not all rosy here all the time, but i survived and really learnt a lot! and now it's time to look forward to going home! on the 29th! 21 more days and hEllo HOME!!! all this time... and now i'm finally able to count down the days to home with all my heart!
and now, the greater realities of life - laundry, yes, i have a mountain of laundry to settle cos i haven't been maintaining the upkeep of my personal hygiene since the start of exams, or was it the start of easter hols? haha!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Monday, June 04, 2007
oggling at scrumptious guys..
takeshi kaneshiro
daniel wu yan zu
he jun xiang
wu zun
it keeps me happy! looking at scrumpilicious guys!! and there are so many of them now!!
i'm just not happy that now i'm one of 'those' girls who go all girly and bimbotic over them...
but... yes, cute guys make my day..
oh, note the lips... sexy... i know which male physical attribute i'm attracted to the most! sexy scrumpilicious lips!!! mmm...
counting down..
3 more days to the final 2 papers..
25 more days to going home!
if you think about it, i've been here for ages! what's 25 days compared to how long i've been here! i'm a survivor!
pats myself on the back!
and i shall bury myself into all the texts i have to read today!!! 25 days 25 days 25 days!!! woohoo!!
home, wait for me!!! :)
25 more days to going home!
if you think about it, i've been here for ages! what's 25 days compared to how long i've been here! i'm a survivor!
pats myself on the back!
and i shall bury myself into all the texts i have to read today!!! 25 days 25 days 25 days!!! woohoo!!
home, wait for me!!! :)
Sunday, June 03, 2007
I'm looking at my metal table lamp which has been lit the entire day...
been reading evolutionary psychology, which would have promised more fun if not for the fact that i have to study if for exams..
counting the number of bugs that fly into the lamp that's too hot for me to touch and singe themselves to death..
i wonder if you can stop them from flying into the lamp...
why do they, when the eventual outcome is death? and a horrible one at that..
the green bugs that colonise the ceiling above my bed are back, they seem to only appear when it's going to rain the next day..
and the roomie's still laughing hysterically over some japanese drama.. i don't understand how one can laugh so hard over shows.. but now i've met one.. sometimes it gets on my nerves but it all comes with sharing rooms.. and it's almost the end of it anyway.. i'm just thankful cos it could have been much worse..
been reading evolutionary psychology, which would have promised more fun if not for the fact that i have to study if for exams..
counting the number of bugs that fly into the lamp that's too hot for me to touch and singe themselves to death..
i wonder if you can stop them from flying into the lamp...
why do they, when the eventual outcome is death? and a horrible one at that..
the green bugs that colonise the ceiling above my bed are back, they seem to only appear when it's going to rain the next day..
and the roomie's still laughing hysterically over some japanese drama.. i don't understand how one can laugh so hard over shows.. but now i've met one.. sometimes it gets on my nerves but it all comes with sharing rooms.. and it's almost the end of it anyway.. i'm just thankful cos it could have been much worse..
Friday, June 01, 2007
still not ending...
exams are still dragging their feet towards the end.. so here i am at the study table while my roommate wraps herself up cosily in bed watching japanese serials on crunchyroll.. what would i do to be in her place at this moment now... this momentary freedom which is marked by 2 (no less) exams at the end of it all.
i can't study any longer. i need to go out and take a breather. to know that i'm free to do anything, anything at all, at no cost!
looking forward to the new year with new resolutions, new plans, new performances for SPL, new things to be done for fun and for passion.
of course before that comes along, i want to go home, meet up with friends, work, read, play, and maybe dance. no rhythm, no restrictions, no system, no boundaries... being able to take something on and letting it go. life's a full circle. you gain and you lose, as much as you wish to be on the winning end, there's always as much a possiblity of losing.
i want a dinner on the cable car too. but not expecting it anytime soon. haha! emancipation? i don't know.. i don't forsee myself getting involved anytime soon... it's jolly being single... and you get the perks of being in the search as you learn how to flirt again... no entanglements...
*meow*
i can't study any longer. i need to go out and take a breather. to know that i'm free to do anything, anything at all, at no cost!
looking forward to the new year with new resolutions, new plans, new performances for SPL, new things to be done for fun and for passion.
of course before that comes along, i want to go home, meet up with friends, work, read, play, and maybe dance. no rhythm, no restrictions, no system, no boundaries... being able to take something on and letting it go. life's a full circle. you gain and you lose, as much as you wish to be on the winning end, there's always as much a possiblity of losing.
i want a dinner on the cable car too. but not expecting it anytime soon. haha! emancipation? i don't know.. i don't forsee myself getting involved anytime soon... it's jolly being single... and you get the perks of being in the search as you learn how to flirt again... no entanglements...
*meow*
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
i've been thinking...
i need to search for something that belongs to me... something that's original and belongs to me...
a niche that belongs to me...
it's not just about studying social policy, studying economics, studying stats and maths...
there's so much in this world that is left untouched and i want to find something that belongs to me...
a design, a template, a model, a creation
.me.
i need to search for something that belongs to me... something that's original and belongs to me...
a niche that belongs to me...
it's not just about studying social policy, studying economics, studying stats and maths...
there's so much in this world that is left untouched and i want to find something that belongs to me...
a design, a template, a model, a creation
.me.
Friday, May 25, 2007
focusing..
i like the way i can focus really hard and get things done recently! i like the silence and calmness in my mind. it makes me feel powerful, like i can achieve anything i want.
and thanks to my roomie Phyllis who is always creating such a din while watching shows on her laptop, i've mastered the art of shutting distractions out when i want to and focus on whatever i am doing. haha! no, i'm not bitching about phyllis, this is all part of hall life with a roomie! and i'm thankful that it's phyllis and not some crazy club trotting angmoh.. and phyllis is great as a roomie!
ooh.. work on girl! it just goes to prove that i'm as good as any one else can be, but i have not fully harnessed my potential! but i'm working on it and i think i can see the light!
and thanks to my roomie Phyllis who is always creating such a din while watching shows on her laptop, i've mastered the art of shutting distractions out when i want to and focus on whatever i am doing. haha! no, i'm not bitching about phyllis, this is all part of hall life with a roomie! and i'm thankful that it's phyllis and not some crazy club trotting angmoh.. and phyllis is great as a roomie!
ooh.. work on girl! it just goes to prove that i'm as good as any one else can be, but i have not fully harnessed my potential! but i'm working on it and i think i can see the light!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
s.u.n.d.a.y.s
Sunday is an important day of the week.
Sunday back at home meant tv with dad in the morning, big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad, dating in the afternoon, going back home late and getting reprimanded for almost missing dinner in the evening.
Sunday in London means reading texts, watching the bright blue sky with blindingly white clouds outside my window, wondering if i should have Sunday roast, fussing about groceries for the coming week, listening to Five for Fighting with a contented smile on my face, wondering what the coming week will bring me, contemplating life, attempting to swim in my bed, biting imaginary marshmallows in the air, yakking away with Phyllis, missing the tv mornings with dad, missing the joy that the big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad brings, missing the feeling of giving my heart to my date in the afternoon, missing the amusement and slight irritation i get from seeing my mom's angry face when i get home late.
I like Sundays back home and Sundays in London.
but for now, i can't wait for tv with dad in the morning and the big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad!!!!
I'll be home soon! Sundays back at home! here i come! :)
Sunday back at home meant tv with dad in the morning, big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad, dating in the afternoon, going back home late and getting reprimanded for almost missing dinner in the evening.
Sunday in London means reading texts, watching the bright blue sky with blindingly white clouds outside my window, wondering if i should have Sunday roast, fussing about groceries for the coming week, listening to Five for Fighting with a contented smile on my face, wondering what the coming week will bring me, contemplating life, attempting to swim in my bed, biting imaginary marshmallows in the air, yakking away with Phyllis, missing the tv mornings with dad, missing the joy that the big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad brings, missing the feeling of giving my heart to my date in the afternoon, missing the amusement and slight irritation i get from seeing my mom's angry face when i get home late.
I like Sundays back home and Sundays in London.
but for now, i can't wait for tv with dad in the morning and the big often greasy hearty brunches with mom and dad!!!!
I'll be home soon! Sundays back at home! here i come! :)
one year ago...
ONE year ago, i was going through the process of admitting myself into NTU business, making resolutions to mug till my ass falls off.
ONE year on, i'm in london mugging for the once-a-year exams. and I'm studying in LSE, which apparently is a tough uni to get in. hmm.. i should really count my blessings. I'm not saying that it was easy for me to get into LSE, having faced many rejections for the more supposedly 'functional' courses, it's just that it seemed like i got into LSE by a stroke of luck or maybe because no other Singaporeans were competing with me for a place in Social Policy! Haha! but hello! i kinda like social policy! it's special, even if it may be irrelevant to Singapore but heck! i revel in the process of learning about the 3 worlds of welfare capitalism, about NHS, about education blar blar blar! and now, even if you were to give me a chance to switch to BSc Economics, i think i might just forgo it! :)
Shimmie thinks shimmie might get a 2:1 this year but Shimmie still has a shot at first... cos i still have 2 essay papers and half a unit to go! so work on shimmie! at least towards a 2:1! no, i'm not a grade obsessed freak, just that i do want to have a good end to a good year! maybe i still dont want it that badly (Shimmie always loses steam after a while, which is a weakness that she succumbs to all the time), but yes, i do want it. so steady girl! all the way!
Shimmie fears that shimmie might be the only Singaporean among all the Singaporean high-fliers, the scholarship holders, the muggers in LSE, to get a second. ok, my realistic aim is a 2:1 ok? my optimistic goal is a 1:1. hee!
ONE year on, i'm in london mugging for the once-a-year exams. and I'm studying in LSE, which apparently is a tough uni to get in. hmm.. i should really count my blessings. I'm not saying that it was easy for me to get into LSE, having faced many rejections for the more supposedly 'functional' courses, it's just that it seemed like i got into LSE by a stroke of luck or maybe because no other Singaporeans were competing with me for a place in Social Policy! Haha! but hello! i kinda like social policy! it's special, even if it may be irrelevant to Singapore but heck! i revel in the process of learning about the 3 worlds of welfare capitalism, about NHS, about education blar blar blar! and now, even if you were to give me a chance to switch to BSc Economics, i think i might just forgo it! :)
Shimmie thinks shimmie might get a 2:1 this year but Shimmie still has a shot at first... cos i still have 2 essay papers and half a unit to go! so work on shimmie! at least towards a 2:1! no, i'm not a grade obsessed freak, just that i do want to have a good end to a good year! maybe i still dont want it that badly (Shimmie always loses steam after a while, which is a weakness that she succumbs to all the time), but yes, i do want it. so steady girl! all the way!
Shimmie fears that shimmie might be the only Singaporean among all the Singaporean high-fliers, the scholarship holders, the muggers in LSE, to get a second. ok, my realistic aim is a 2:1 ok? my optimistic goal is a 1:1. hee!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
rosie-posie!
Mom, don't squeal! i know you love flowers! haha! these are from hyde park! yup, really nice and brilliant! this is what spring is about! beautiful flowers all around, in full bloom! really lovely!
Life ain't a bed of roses.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
the way down...
Shimmie misses the familiarity of things.
There's this sudden feel of loss and emptiness.
I need a lift.
and there are loads of bugs in my room!!!! spring woke them all up and they are flocking in droves to my room!! Ugh! i hate the job of collecting their lifeless bodies in the morning! and phyllis keeps telling me the story of how the queen of the bugs would come and seek revenge on people who mistreat the bodies of the bugs by laying and hatching eggs in the person's body, resulting in me having to gingerly pick the green mass of legs, wings and bodies with tissue, gently wrapping them up while saying a prayer to let their poor souls rest in peace.
there are just so many of them on the ceiling above my bed. and directly above where i place my head when i sleep!!! i'm going to have to switch positions tonight so that the bugs won't drop into my mouth when i sleep! UGH! one bad thing about spring. and apparently it just gets worst!
the bug count just rose to 20. damn.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
pookies!
i feel like a pookie! with all the spikes and everything! i'm in a foul mood! stay away! growls!
but who wouldn't melt at the sight of such cutie-pie chocolate porcupines (pookies!) sitting in the basket waiting for someone to pick them up. i saw them at the market in Barcelona and they were simply irresistable! somehow i dont know what came over me but i DIDN'T buy any of them!!! Retard! kicks myself! bah! they're now sitting on my desktop, cheering me on!
thanks pookies! :)
the people of the trip!
Here are my travelmates, xiufang, jasmine and serene!
and yes, i'm staggering the upload of all the pictures. i'm only doing it when i feel like it so patience, guys... at least i'm uploading them now! :)
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Gaudi in Barcelona
Gaudi, the great master of design and architecture. we visited his work of arts and they were really impressive. i felt like i was on another planet!
the last photo was taken on the roof of la pedrera and through the arch, you can see another of Gaudi's famous works, the Sagrada Familia.
Barcelona!
let me see, we've got here pictures of the...
nice beach at my seafront hostel in barcelona
along the shopping district las ramblas
musicians playing jazz outside Topshop at las ramblas
port vell, which was near my hostel too
black and white photo of las ramblas
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
an occasion for celebration?
i am never one for celebrations or festivals. i always prefer to keep them a quiet family affair or if it appeals to me, occassionally, with a group of close friends. celebrations and festivals are more or less a circumstance for me, if i do go through the motion of celebrating them. christmases, new years, birthdays, valentines' day... they all come and go, in a matter of seconds, and life still goes on the way it should, at least that is the way it has been for a typical student like me. but ever since i came to london, certain days of the calendar just stand out in my face, beckoning for some form of celebration, or in the very least, some form of recognition. they become more important and they have a greater role to play, symbolising a lot more than just simple plain dates in a month, as they would be if i were back at home.
they became a vital indication of care and love from my loved ones back at home, almost as if i am afraid of being forgotten.
they were also timely parcels of warmth and strength to keep me going in a foreign land.
i can't over emphasize how much these dates mean to me now that i'm still far away from home.
so when xmas 2006 came and went, new year 2007 came and went, birthday came and went... and the well wishes that never came... the first 3 big occasions spent away from home only serve as big ugly reminders of how stupid and naive i can be in a relationship. and i just cannot forget how they were so conveniently forgotten. it only showed that i didn't matter too much, did i? it was a gaping wound that was left to fester on its own until school and other commitments temporarily drew my attention away. but the hurt and pain never left. not for one single moment. 'betrayed' is the word to use.
valentines' day could probably have been an attempt to set things on the path again, but by then, i was just too cynical and jaded by everything that has happened. all the lame excuses and feeble attempts.
maybe it's best to forget the past and let time heal all wounds. ha. ha. pardon the cliche. even i find it hard to stomach.
on a lighter note, i'm still mugging! to all who still care, yes, i'm mugging and getting ready for the exams! :)
they became a vital indication of care and love from my loved ones back at home, almost as if i am afraid of being forgotten.
they were also timely parcels of warmth and strength to keep me going in a foreign land.
i can't over emphasize how much these dates mean to me now that i'm still far away from home.
so when xmas 2006 came and went, new year 2007 came and went, birthday came and went... and the well wishes that never came... the first 3 big occasions spent away from home only serve as big ugly reminders of how stupid and naive i can be in a relationship. and i just cannot forget how they were so conveniently forgotten. it only showed that i didn't matter too much, did i? it was a gaping wound that was left to fester on its own until school and other commitments temporarily drew my attention away. but the hurt and pain never left. not for one single moment. 'betrayed' is the word to use.
valentines' day could probably have been an attempt to set things on the path again, but by then, i was just too cynical and jaded by everything that has happened. all the lame excuses and feeble attempts.
maybe it's best to forget the past and let time heal all wounds. ha. ha. pardon the cliche. even i find it hard to stomach.
on a lighter note, i'm still mugging! to all who still care, yes, i'm mugging and getting ready for the exams! :)
Sunday, April 15, 2007
mug the shit out.
I chanced upon several acquaintances' blogs on one of my usual random blog surfs and it's a wonder how much motivation these people have to study hard. I find it hard to stay focused and mug my shit out. i guess it's because i've more or less had things easy and i've not want anything that badly before, always expecting that things will work out on their own. well, i don't really have things easy. i have to work hard but i just don't, at least not enough to get where i think i really want to. eventually i just compromise on my standards and make up excuses like i'm good where i am too. it's bad... and i know it is. i want to do well but not badly enough cos i always end up cutting myself too much slack. and it's about a week to the end of hols and four freaking weeks to exams. well, technically speaking, i still have time if i mug my shit out.
please shimmie, for once, don't compromise on your standards.
i shall post my study progress on my blog everyday from now on. seriously, i don't have a life. but it's only for this month at least. once the freaking exams end, i can get my life back. and i can feel freaking good about it. afterall, i've enjoyed myself so much for the past few months in london so it's seriously time to just pull my socks up and mug my shit out.
get over the inertia shimmie!
please shimmie, for once, don't compromise on your standards.
i shall post my study progress on my blog everyday from now on. seriously, i don't have a life. but it's only for this month at least. once the freaking exams end, i can get my life back. and i can feel freaking good about it. afterall, i've enjoyed myself so much for the past few months in london so it's seriously time to just pull my socks up and mug my shit out.
get over the inertia shimmie!
Friday, April 06, 2007
Spring's here to chase away me fat blues!
You know you're fat when you're sitting at your table studying, feeling like there's this huge weight pressed against your heart and when your upper body is supported by washboard like layers of fat on your tummy...
wierd, and i've been running at the gym... now i can't eat without ever feeling like exploding... crosses fingers and pray i'll slim down by the time i get back home! don't want mom to keep saying i'm fat and i should eat less... eating less has never been an option for me! i just try to work out more but it takes long to work off everything i've accumulated this far...
i miss home!
i miss being skinny! for once i can say i'm erm, fat! haha! nah, it's not become a blinding obsession for me to lose weight yet, or ever, cos 1. i'm too busy mugging for exams 2. food therapy works best for me when i'm stressed from mugging so it's a vicious cycle if you see what i mean. you have to lose weight, but all your effort is devoted to mugging, and on top of that you're inclined to eating more than normal cos you're stressed from mugging, so you eat, you put on those fats, and you feel you have to lose weight, but all your effort is devoted to mugging, and on top of that... haha! i sure know how to make myself feel better!
St Jame's park is coming to life! it's finally spring, i can say! the sun was glorious though it was coupled with blasts of chilly wind but that didn't stop scores of people from sprawling across the lawns of mother nature and soaking in the sun! The squirrels are out to play again! they look really thin though and now they're out and about scrounging for food to store up for the next winter! i love squirrels!!! there were many birds at st jame's and they sure were envious of the furry squirrels cos the frisky creatures took all the limelight, bushy tail, doe eyes and all! you can't help falling in love with them sqwarrels! :)
wierd, and i've been running at the gym... now i can't eat without ever feeling like exploding... crosses fingers and pray i'll slim down by the time i get back home! don't want mom to keep saying i'm fat and i should eat less... eating less has never been an option for me! i just try to work out more but it takes long to work off everything i've accumulated this far...
i miss home!
i miss being skinny! for once i can say i'm erm, fat! haha! nah, it's not become a blinding obsession for me to lose weight yet, or ever, cos 1. i'm too busy mugging for exams 2. food therapy works best for me when i'm stressed from mugging so it's a vicious cycle if you see what i mean. you have to lose weight, but all your effort is devoted to mugging, and on top of that you're inclined to eating more than normal cos you're stressed from mugging, so you eat, you put on those fats, and you feel you have to lose weight, but all your effort is devoted to mugging, and on top of that... haha! i sure know how to make myself feel better!
St Jame's park is coming to life! it's finally spring, i can say! the sun was glorious though it was coupled with blasts of chilly wind but that didn't stop scores of people from sprawling across the lawns of mother nature and soaking in the sun! The squirrels are out to play again! they look really thin though and now they're out and about scrounging for food to store up for the next winter! i love squirrels!!! there were many birds at st jame's and they sure were envious of the furry squirrels cos the frisky creatures took all the limelight, bushy tail, doe eyes and all! you can't help falling in love with them sqwarrels! :)
Thursday, April 05, 2007
pot of gold
Haha! i cooked my first perfect pot of rice today! ever since the Demise of The Rice Cooker, i had to use my trusty old pot to cook rice for quite a while and i've finally mastered the technique so today i had nice well-cooked brown rice with slightly charred bits at the base! i'm getting good man! and dinner was heavenly by my culinary standards! omelette with shallots and button mushrooms, prawns with diced peppers in tomato and basil sauce decked on butter lettuce! smacks lips and pats myself in contentment! once again, i've surpassed myself! haha!
and yes, the pictures! well... i haven't even loaded them onto my laptop! it's been a mad frenzy to finish that dratted microeconomics textbook but i'm about to be done with it! :) finally!
talk about personal achievement man! haha!
and yes, the pictures! well... i haven't even loaded them onto my laptop! it's been a mad frenzy to finish that dratted microeconomics textbook but i'm about to be done with it! :) finally!
talk about personal achievement man! haha!
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
back from spain!
Alright alright... i'll post the pictures on real soon! but just to say i'm still very much alive and kicking! though it was a whole lot of crazy walking in spain! to my dear travelmates serene xiufang and jasmine, you guys are great! find myself often amused by the eccentricities and the dynamics of the group! would definitely have been different without you guys! so now, let's trudge through the remainder of the holidays with a heavy heart and study study study!
thanks mom and dad for letting me go on this trip! don't worry i didn't bust a hole in my pocket from shopping, i didn't really do much shopping, seriously! you guys know me, i hate shopping! haha! love you! you rock! and yes, the pictures will come on erm, in a few days' time? hopefully! haha!
thanks mom and dad for letting me go on this trip! don't worry i didn't bust a hole in my pocket from shopping, i didn't really do much shopping, seriously! you guys know me, i hate shopping! haha! love you! you rock! and yes, the pictures will come on erm, in a few days' time? hopefully! haha!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
resolved, resolution, resolute
haven't blogged in ages! haha! i even forgot my username so i randomly tried some which i thought could possibly be my username and in the end had to send a form to request for it... what a loser am i! haha!
well... lent term ended a few days ago and it's the easter break now! i'm dying! there are loads of work and revision to be accomplished! and i have to force myself to sit at the table and work hard! ah!!! but this time, of all the times i've sat at the table to study for all the exams before, i was more or less constantly motivated to work hard even though my mind wanders into the world of pink bubbles and blue cotton candy at times! i guess i'm enlightened! haha! and i'm resolved to make good my time and work hard!
i think at the moment i'm not working as hard as i would like to but i can forsee i will be able to! and this time it won't be too late for the exams! i really want to do decently well!!!! so i'll study really hard!!!
GO SHIMMIE!!!!! reach for the freaking stars!!!
alright! off to work i go!
a quote, ' since you have a lot to study, just study la!!!!'
haha! nicely put... it's like a no-brainer... but it makes absolute sense...
my walls are humming in a low murmur, 'study study study study study....'
ah... what a joyous atmosphere!
i'm turning schizo! haha! and happy being one! geez... must be the london air!
the need to mug just permeates in the air! wowee!
well... lent term ended a few days ago and it's the easter break now! i'm dying! there are loads of work and revision to be accomplished! and i have to force myself to sit at the table and work hard! ah!!! but this time, of all the times i've sat at the table to study for all the exams before, i was more or less constantly motivated to work hard even though my mind wanders into the world of pink bubbles and blue cotton candy at times! i guess i'm enlightened! haha! and i'm resolved to make good my time and work hard!
i think at the moment i'm not working as hard as i would like to but i can forsee i will be able to! and this time it won't be too late for the exams! i really want to do decently well!!!! so i'll study really hard!!!
GO SHIMMIE!!!!! reach for the freaking stars!!!
alright! off to work i go!
a quote, ' since you have a lot to study, just study la!!!!'
haha! nicely put... it's like a no-brainer... but it makes absolute sense...
my walls are humming in a low murmur, 'study study study study study....'
ah... what a joyous atmosphere!
i'm turning schizo! haha! and happy being one! geez... must be the london air!
the need to mug just permeates in the air! wowee!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
hcnite 2007
Go on, go to the link...
well... it's me singing on hcnite... someone posted on youtube.. damn.. i know it's not like i sang really well.. in fact i thought i could do better... but it is afterall my first time singing alone... with my nerves getting to me and all...
so, enjoy...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HrAr84GMeQ
on hindsight, it was not too bad i guess... ahwell...
whatever...
well... it's me singing on hcnite... someone posted on youtube.. damn.. i know it's not like i sang really well.. in fact i thought i could do better... but it is afterall my first time singing alone... with my nerves getting to me and all...
so, enjoy...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HrAr84GMeQ
on hindsight, it was not too bad i guess... ahwell...
whatever...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Anthropology 2007: TWO
This is the second installment to the 4 performances SPL is doing this year and this is my last performance of the year i think.
Wow.
I'm drained, suffering from this syndrome called performer's fatigue, if there's such a phrase.
Ever since Excess Baggage (which was 4 solid months of hard work), I have not stopped memorising lines, memorising blockings, pushing my emotions to extreme spectrums from being a deranged maid to a high-pitched airhead.
Man, can i just say i've done it all and i'll be contentedly happy with what i have done and i will start some serious mugging. Really, with all these performances and emceeing stints, i'm feeling quite drained.
Last night was HwaChong Nite 2007. Sorry folks, no photos (they're all on my friends' cameras cos i forgot to bring mine), though i thought my attire was pretty cool but i dont think i did a great job at being an emcee. could have done better. not my best. guess it's the last minute thing. my nerves were pretty frazzled by the end of the event. and i had to sing the opening number and it was kind of awkward - the emcee singing the opening song... not really glam... and i didn't memorise the song lyrics cos my brain refuses to cooperate with me so i sang with a cue card which was really quite unprofessional... i dont think i sang very well... but it was a good first attempt... probably there'll be more opportunities to come. haha!
I keep saying i'm tired but i don't know if i can get used to life once everything ends...
and Lehman Brothers didn't reply me about Easter. i'm wondering if there's anything wrong with my CV cos i've applied for several stuff but nobody replies to my applications.. it's irritating.. i mean, i don't think i'm that bad and if nobody gives me a start, i'll never get the experience... this is demoralising... i'm hoping there'll be some form of divine intervention, either make me smarter, or let me get through even the first round of applications!!!
Thursday, February 01, 2007
ANTHROPOLOGY 2007
ANTHROPOLOGY 2007 is proudly brought to you by Singapore Playhouse London SPL.
and i'm performing in it!!! haha! my project immediately after excess baggage to stave off missing all the hectic rehearsal schedule for the musical and to feed my addiction to performing on stage!
and my family from EBTM's coming down to support me! haha! i'll be sure to put up a good show!
ALL THE BEST to the peeps performing tomorrow!!! and myself!!! :)
Sunday, January 21, 2007
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