things to do:
pack my duvet, pillow, pillowcase, softtoys, bedsheets
go gym
go to brunswick to buy stuff home
meet yangwen for tea
have dinner with phyllis and winston
bring the stuff above to joanne's place for storage
pack everything and tie up loose ends
try to sleep
growls
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
trails in Epping Forest!
i went to Epping Forest in zone 6 today! ooh! zone 6 is really nice! haha! the food's cheap too! had a full English breakfast and toffee apple crumble with hot custard on top of it for like about 5 pounds! then went on to walk the trails in Epping Forest! it's exactly what i think an English forest would look like! like the way the trees stand around in a ring around a clearing of copper brown leaves, the rabbits with the whites in their tails bobbing up and down as they scramble into hiding at any approaching sound, the squirrels bounding around the forest, stopping here and there with their ears perked up for any passerby.. there were houses lining the fringe of the forest and i must say these are exactly the houses i expected English houses to be like before I came to london, but was disappointed time and time again to see the drab and dreary buildings in central london. these houses in zone 6 had the cute little porches with the cute little porch lights, beautiful windows with glazed windows, slated roofs and everything you'd look for in an English house! and just a few steps away, you can take in the entire breathtaking view of Epping Forest where flowers dot the lush green landscape! i should work towards owning a house like that! and get mom and dad over for their retirement! i'm sure they'll love the place! zone 6 sounds scary and completely out of the way once you're so used to walking from point A to point B in Central London and can't think of living anywhere except in central london, but once you actually try travelling from zone 6 to central london, it feels just like travelling from Sembawang to City Hall! that's how close it is! 25 mins tube ride away! for a better quality of life! at least i know it will be for me! :) ahh...
Monday, June 25, 2007
freak! 4 more days!
yes, 4 more days and i'll be on the plane back home!!!
i've been packing up and buying loads of junk food back home.. haha! mom's gonna kill me... but you can't mom, cos most of the stuff i bought are chocolates and i know you have a soft spot for chocolates, and on top of that, most of them are for the kids back at home.. so mom, don't complain.. think about it this way, this is probably my last time coming home, so take it that i'm buying for the last time, and it'll be fine! so long as everyone's happy!!! haha!
so, peeps, 4 more days... till then!
i've been packing up and buying loads of junk food back home.. haha! mom's gonna kill me... but you can't mom, cos most of the stuff i bought are chocolates and i know you have a soft spot for chocolates, and on top of that, most of them are for the kids back at home.. so mom, don't complain.. think about it this way, this is probably my last time coming home, so take it that i'm buying for the last time, and it'll be fine! so long as everyone's happy!!! haha!
so, peeps, 4 more days... till then!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
what do you do with a batch of over-achieving school-leavers who get 1st class with honours, are title-holders of several clubs and societies, are able in sports or whatnot and are unbelievably popular when all they do, is to be obsessed with being over-achieving, wrapped up in their own over-achieving realm, where the subtleties of life means nothing, when being self-centred is the way of life? how much can you give despite the volumes you get, when you become over-achieving, when you put all your heart and soul in being over-achieving and forget the world around.
i probably sound anal digging at over-achievers, probably sound bitter even, cos i'm not really an over-achiever but maybe i don't really want to be an over-achiever, not because it's unattainable (i still believe that if there's something i really want, i can get it), but because i really wonder, what can we do with a batch of over-achieving school leavers when they are only concerned with themselves and their standing in society. there is nothing wrong with being slightly self-centred, who isn't, but being self-centred to the extent that you neglect promoting the growth of others and society as a whole creates a regressing effect. you can expect the society to peak with the activities of these over-achievers, but i believe it will reach a plateau because there is no longer anymore synergy when everyone has expanded their own efforts for themselves, which incidentally achieves progress for the society as a whole, but when this individualistic effort is exhausted, there is nothing left for regeneration and creation.
but as usual, this is being too idealistic on my part.
i probably sound anal digging at over-achievers, probably sound bitter even, cos i'm not really an over-achiever but maybe i don't really want to be an over-achiever, not because it's unattainable (i still believe that if there's something i really want, i can get it), but because i really wonder, what can we do with a batch of over-achieving school leavers when they are only concerned with themselves and their standing in society. there is nothing wrong with being slightly self-centred, who isn't, but being self-centred to the extent that you neglect promoting the growth of others and society as a whole creates a regressing effect. you can expect the society to peak with the activities of these over-achievers, but i believe it will reach a plateau because there is no longer anymore synergy when everyone has expanded their own efforts for themselves, which incidentally achieves progress for the society as a whole, but when this individualistic effort is exhausted, there is nothing left for regeneration and creation.
but as usual, this is being too idealistic on my part.
on london weather
i dont get it!! why is it still cold and dreary, grey and rainy at this time of the year?? is it going to be like a perpetual reflection of doom and gloom here all year round? and it's what, nearing jul!? and it's not even summery at all? growls.. the weather here really has a dampening effect!!! i need the sun in singapore!! i mean, of course i would complain a little when i get back cos of the heat and humidity but i am sure the sunny days and blue skies back at home would beat the crap out of the weather here! i remember looking out of my living room window back at home (i don't have a living room here!) marvelling at the beautiful sky and enjoying the warmth the sun brings. so, i would definitely embrace the weather back home, regardless of how sweaty, sticky and stinky i get! :)
it's ooh!, 6 more days to going home... i can live with it... persevere babe!
it's ooh!, 6 more days to going home... i can live with it... persevere babe!
Friday, June 22, 2007
mash up music @ dana centre
it's funny how time trickles when you look forward to something, like in my case, going home a week later. it's irritating. i mean i do have things to do here but i just want to get home. growls...
oh, yesterday was cool. after mucking around in the gym for a while, i went to dana centre @ south kensington for a talk on mash up music. i can so tell you that i suck at navigation cos i had such a terrible time searching for the place when it was just right next to the freaking natural history museum!!! i dropped off at gloucester road and then consulted the map at the bus station like twice but still ended up taking the wrong end of the street, which resulted in me walking all the way to earl's court, only to turn back after i asked a lady out of desperation, and i ran all the way back to square one and walked up the other end of the street, not without getting confused by the order the buildings along the street was numbered. so, an originally supposed 5 minute walk turned into a half hour nightmarish marathon. but yes, i finally got there, with much panting and sweating.
so, back to the talk, i decided to be arty and attend a talk on the genre of music that is completely foreign to me - mash up music, which is basically mashing up old/new tracks of music, videos, media and matching their beats such that it became a new funky form of music! wow! we had 3 speakers who talked about their jobs as mash up artists and the coolest part was when they split us up into three groups and we had to discuss in our groups about money making methods from this new 'industry'. I was on the verge of bailing out when we had to separate into groups to discuss but thought since i was here, i might as well go through the entire event and it was a good experience seeing people present and speak. obviously i couldn't contribute much cos i knew little of the subject. they don't judge you if you don't speak, they don't make you feel small if you just sat there and listened; it was all very spontaneous and comfortable. it was the first time in a group i didn't feel like i had to make a noise to be heard. at the end of the event, the 3 speakers did a short gig and that, was my virginal experience of listening to mash up.
oh, yesterday was cool. after mucking around in the gym for a while, i went to dana centre @ south kensington for a talk on mash up music. i can so tell you that i suck at navigation cos i had such a terrible time searching for the place when it was just right next to the freaking natural history museum!!! i dropped off at gloucester road and then consulted the map at the bus station like twice but still ended up taking the wrong end of the street, which resulted in me walking all the way to earl's court, only to turn back after i asked a lady out of desperation, and i ran all the way back to square one and walked up the other end of the street, not without getting confused by the order the buildings along the street was numbered. so, an originally supposed 5 minute walk turned into a half hour nightmarish marathon. but yes, i finally got there, with much panting and sweating.
so, back to the talk, i decided to be arty and attend a talk on the genre of music that is completely foreign to me - mash up music, which is basically mashing up old/new tracks of music, videos, media and matching their beats such that it became a new funky form of music! wow! we had 3 speakers who talked about their jobs as mash up artists and the coolest part was when they split us up into three groups and we had to discuss in our groups about money making methods from this new 'industry'. I was on the verge of bailing out when we had to separate into groups to discuss but thought since i was here, i might as well go through the entire event and it was a good experience seeing people present and speak. obviously i couldn't contribute much cos i knew little of the subject. they don't judge you if you don't speak, they don't make you feel small if you just sat there and listened; it was all very spontaneous and comfortable. it was the first time in a group i didn't feel like i had to make a noise to be heard. at the end of the event, the 3 speakers did a short gig and that, was my virginal experience of listening to mash up.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
things on my list
settle accomodations for next academic year: check
read: ... still trying to get it started
stop having mean thoughts about people: ... it's hard especially when they just keep getting on your nerves.
pack my clutter for storage: about 50% done and will be moving next week
have tea with tutor: check, did that today and i enjoyed it
buy stuff for people back home: maybe next week once i've decided what to get
go to a gay bar: man, i only just found out that Paul went back already so there's no guide! growls...
laundry: still a bit more dirty laundry to be accumulated before i dump them into the machine
visit free museums: somehow i've yet to get over the inertia
i'm proud of myself though cos i've been keeping to a promise i made to myself but i can't say it aloud here cos i dont want to jinx myself! haha! i will persist! :)
i can't believe it! 1 week and 3 more days to home!
read: ... still trying to get it started
stop having mean thoughts about people: ... it's hard especially when they just keep getting on your nerves.
pack my clutter for storage: about 50% done and will be moving next week
have tea with tutor: check, did that today and i enjoyed it
buy stuff for people back home: maybe next week once i've decided what to get
go to a gay bar: man, i only just found out that Paul went back already so there's no guide! growls...
laundry: still a bit more dirty laundry to be accumulated before i dump them into the machine
visit free museums: somehow i've yet to get over the inertia
i'm proud of myself though cos i've been keeping to a promise i made to myself but i can't say it aloud here cos i dont want to jinx myself! haha! i will persist! :)
i can't believe it! 1 week and 3 more days to home!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Avenue Q - It Sucks To Be Me
Last night, i caught Avenue O at the neil coward theatre with winston! it completely blew me away! the jokes, the satire on taboo issues like homosexuality, unemployment, sex and internet porn sent everyone in the audience laughing through the show! it was amazing the way the puppeteers brought the muppets to life! the muppets were so much a part of them i almost felt like the puppeteers didn't exist and the muppets were the ones doing the singing and acting! found some clips on youtube!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
moving on...
I haven't gotten used to the time that i have now on my hands! haha! well, actually i haven't been that free.. i've been searching and viewing houses in a frenzy for next year! but i've been rewarded, together with the help of phyllis and huijie, i finally found a house where we'd all like! tomorrow we'll be signing the agreement and putting down the deposit! shall try to polish my cantonese and to ask for more perks! haha! i tried talking to the landlady in cantonese yesterday and i must say, i'm slightly surprised that i managed it pretty well for an amateur like myself! must be the hk drama i've been watching recently! been trying to read as well but i feel so tired everytime i try... hmm.. that's a lousy excuse! i'll have to force myself! been trying to get into an exercise regime but it's always 'oh i'll do it tomorrow' and that tomorrow just leads on to the next and the next and never materialises! haha! lazy me! at least i played squash with xiufang yesterday! and guess what, we didn't even run that much and our muscles were already complaining. yes, that's how unfit we are! haha! i packed some of my stuff today and i was quite happy to see almost all my clothes fitting into my humongous luggage! haha! makes packing a lot easier! so i'm not left with much to pack! the only thing is transferring my stuff to my storage place.. will enlist the help of winston or something! excited to move!!! excited to get home!!! and i'm so near to going home!!! finally!! haha!
Friday, June 08, 2007
I'm Done!!! Hello Home!!!
weehee!!! the wild taste of freedom! seriously for the last 2 months, i must say, i have been languishing in pain, studying everyday and feeling like it will never end. there were times where i just wanted a break and do stuff without exams nagging at the back of my mind and finally, yesterday, at 1730, i was free.
this feeling of being liberated to do anything i want is mind blowing, though i haven't had the chance to fully have a taste of it. mind blowing because you've been trapped in this cycle for so long, caught up in a system of studying, forcing yourself to study because you didn't want to do too badly, telling yourself it's good to study, giving yourself momentary breaks which were mostly a way to distract yourself for a while so that you can come back and study even more, and finally, on the last day, at the last second, you are free, free to do anything you want, free to have fun with no commitments and obligations. wow. but i did enjoy the process of lamenting the fact that everyone else was done and i still had 2 freaking papers and then studying... it was a feat!!! i think the entire process was a feat! that i hung in there till this point and did what i could to not let myself down! and to have such self control over myself despite the many distractions i faced! and i can boast that i did two 3-hr essay papers on my last day. Let me tell you how bad it was, by the end of the papers, i had two blisters on my fingers and my hand felt sore, almost as if it was about to fall off. but. but. but! i'm done! the final point of this year.
i'll have to do some reflecting on this year since yesterday marked the end of the academic year for me. i must say i really did do some work here! it was not all rosy here all the time, but i survived and really learnt a lot! and now it's time to look forward to going home! on the 29th! 21 more days and hEllo HOME!!! all this time... and now i'm finally able to count down the days to home with all my heart!
and now, the greater realities of life - laundry, yes, i have a mountain of laundry to settle cos i haven't been maintaining the upkeep of my personal hygiene since the start of exams, or was it the start of easter hols? haha!
this feeling of being liberated to do anything i want is mind blowing, though i haven't had the chance to fully have a taste of it. mind blowing because you've been trapped in this cycle for so long, caught up in a system of studying, forcing yourself to study because you didn't want to do too badly, telling yourself it's good to study, giving yourself momentary breaks which were mostly a way to distract yourself for a while so that you can come back and study even more, and finally, on the last day, at the last second, you are free, free to do anything you want, free to have fun with no commitments and obligations. wow. but i did enjoy the process of lamenting the fact that everyone else was done and i still had 2 freaking papers and then studying... it was a feat!!! i think the entire process was a feat! that i hung in there till this point and did what i could to not let myself down! and to have such self control over myself despite the many distractions i faced! and i can boast that i did two 3-hr essay papers on my last day. Let me tell you how bad it was, by the end of the papers, i had two blisters on my fingers and my hand felt sore, almost as if it was about to fall off. but. but. but! i'm done! the final point of this year.
i'll have to do some reflecting on this year since yesterday marked the end of the academic year for me. i must say i really did do some work here! it was not all rosy here all the time, but i survived and really learnt a lot! and now it's time to look forward to going home! on the 29th! 21 more days and hEllo HOME!!! all this time... and now i'm finally able to count down the days to home with all my heart!
and now, the greater realities of life - laundry, yes, i have a mountain of laundry to settle cos i haven't been maintaining the upkeep of my personal hygiene since the start of exams, or was it the start of easter hols? haha!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Monday, June 04, 2007
oggling at scrumptious guys..
takeshi kaneshiro
daniel wu yan zu
he jun xiang
wu zun
it keeps me happy! looking at scrumpilicious guys!! and there are so many of them now!!
i'm just not happy that now i'm one of 'those' girls who go all girly and bimbotic over them...
but... yes, cute guys make my day..
oh, note the lips... sexy... i know which male physical attribute i'm attracted to the most! sexy scrumpilicious lips!!! mmm...
counting down..
3 more days to the final 2 papers..
25 more days to going home!
if you think about it, i've been here for ages! what's 25 days compared to how long i've been here! i'm a survivor!
pats myself on the back!
and i shall bury myself into all the texts i have to read today!!! 25 days 25 days 25 days!!! woohoo!!
home, wait for me!!! :)
25 more days to going home!
if you think about it, i've been here for ages! what's 25 days compared to how long i've been here! i'm a survivor!
pats myself on the back!
and i shall bury myself into all the texts i have to read today!!! 25 days 25 days 25 days!!! woohoo!!
home, wait for me!!! :)
Sunday, June 03, 2007
I'm looking at my metal table lamp which has been lit the entire day...
been reading evolutionary psychology, which would have promised more fun if not for the fact that i have to study if for exams..
counting the number of bugs that fly into the lamp that's too hot for me to touch and singe themselves to death..
i wonder if you can stop them from flying into the lamp...
why do they, when the eventual outcome is death? and a horrible one at that..
the green bugs that colonise the ceiling above my bed are back, they seem to only appear when it's going to rain the next day..
and the roomie's still laughing hysterically over some japanese drama.. i don't understand how one can laugh so hard over shows.. but now i've met one.. sometimes it gets on my nerves but it all comes with sharing rooms.. and it's almost the end of it anyway.. i'm just thankful cos it could have been much worse..
been reading evolutionary psychology, which would have promised more fun if not for the fact that i have to study if for exams..
counting the number of bugs that fly into the lamp that's too hot for me to touch and singe themselves to death..
i wonder if you can stop them from flying into the lamp...
why do they, when the eventual outcome is death? and a horrible one at that..
the green bugs that colonise the ceiling above my bed are back, they seem to only appear when it's going to rain the next day..
and the roomie's still laughing hysterically over some japanese drama.. i don't understand how one can laugh so hard over shows.. but now i've met one.. sometimes it gets on my nerves but it all comes with sharing rooms.. and it's almost the end of it anyway.. i'm just thankful cos it could have been much worse..
Friday, June 01, 2007
still not ending...
exams are still dragging their feet towards the end.. so here i am at the study table while my roommate wraps herself up cosily in bed watching japanese serials on crunchyroll.. what would i do to be in her place at this moment now... this momentary freedom which is marked by 2 (no less) exams at the end of it all.
i can't study any longer. i need to go out and take a breather. to know that i'm free to do anything, anything at all, at no cost!
looking forward to the new year with new resolutions, new plans, new performances for SPL, new things to be done for fun and for passion.
of course before that comes along, i want to go home, meet up with friends, work, read, play, and maybe dance. no rhythm, no restrictions, no system, no boundaries... being able to take something on and letting it go. life's a full circle. you gain and you lose, as much as you wish to be on the winning end, there's always as much a possiblity of losing.
i want a dinner on the cable car too. but not expecting it anytime soon. haha! emancipation? i don't know.. i don't forsee myself getting involved anytime soon... it's jolly being single... and you get the perks of being in the search as you learn how to flirt again... no entanglements...
*meow*
i can't study any longer. i need to go out and take a breather. to know that i'm free to do anything, anything at all, at no cost!
looking forward to the new year with new resolutions, new plans, new performances for SPL, new things to be done for fun and for passion.
of course before that comes along, i want to go home, meet up with friends, work, read, play, and maybe dance. no rhythm, no restrictions, no system, no boundaries... being able to take something on and letting it go. life's a full circle. you gain and you lose, as much as you wish to be on the winning end, there's always as much a possiblity of losing.
i want a dinner on the cable car too. but not expecting it anytime soon. haha! emancipation? i don't know.. i don't forsee myself getting involved anytime soon... it's jolly being single... and you get the perks of being in the search as you learn how to flirt again... no entanglements...
*meow*
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